| Well, as you can tell by the title this is a continuation of the last Personal journal. Well, last time I was talking about this girl I liked... yada yada yada. Anyway, things don't seem to be working out in my end, I probably fucked up a time or two, or not, I don't know, maybe I am just trying to blame this on myself. Incase you just got lost, I'll fill you in. We went to see that movie right, well, two days later I called her, to see if she wanted to hang out again. Well, either I had to work or she had to work, or she had band... the point is, we didn't have time. So basically we talked on the phone then for like an hour or two about stuff in general. Then the next day I called again... I know, I probably should have waited, but I really felt like talking to her agian. She seemed fine about it. We talked for another hour to two hours about stuff in general. Then I figure I would wait a day before calling her again, since otherwise I am a freak. This is were I realized I shouldn't have called two days in a row. Then I was going to call her the day after, but I lost her number. I seriouly, to this day, don't know hat happened to it. I took it as a sign that I shouldn't call her. I am not into the whole fate thing, but sometimes I fell coinsciences happen for a reason, hence the fate thing. After looking for a long time, I give up and figure I wasn't ment to call her, and then took it as a sign to give up on her. But then I thought that was taking it too far.
A couple days later I got to see her, so she gave me the number again, this time on a much bigger piece of paper so I don't loose it. Did that mean she didn't want me to loose it? Did she WANT me to call her more? Then I saw her give her number to some other guy a few minutes after me, so I figured she would rather talk to him. Because of the randon dispensing of her number, I kind of ignored her for awhile. She realized and came over to me and said, I haven't seen you in a long time. I said, yeah, you gave me your number, then she put her arm around me. This kind of confused me, I thought I am just another one of her guy friends that she gets all huggy with. I played along. Two days later I called her before my internship, and I talked to her for a while and asked if she wanted to do something later, she said she couldn't but would call when she was done with band. That night she did call back,but it was a little later then I thought she would call. She called to tell me she had two huge spiders in the house. She wanted someone to comfort her over the phone, the first person she thought of was me. Well, we talked for a long time about this and that. Then I brought up the conversation of people liking people. I asked her if she liked me. She paused for a second and said, "I thought about it for a long time and, I don't know." I told her I liked her, she seemed flattered by it, but then she started with the excuses why it wouldn't work, and I responded with reasons why I would. The conversation then lend to that we would come to a conclusion once we hung out more and got to know each other more. We then wrapped up the conversation since it was really late and she had to work in the morning. It made me think that there was hope.
Then I called her on Monday of this week before my internship, which had to be only a couple days after the last time I talked to her. The day before this though she visited me at work just to see me. I didnt have time to talk or anything, she came in bought food and left. Then I asked her on the phone why she did that. She said to see me. I told her that it was because she was hungry. She said it wasnt since she was at Burger King and would have aten there if it was just for the food. I made me happy. Then I asked what she was doing later tonight. She said getting drunk with her friends. She wouldn't call me, since she will be drunk and with friends. I told her should could. She didnt call. I thought most drunk people liked calling people when they are drunk. Well, since Monday I havn't talked to her. I had to work, and have been really busy planning this trip up north this weekend. Which I will leave for Saturday now, I think. I was going to call her Wednesday to do something with her, because I knew she didnt have to work and I was done at 7, but things came up and I wasn't able to call or hang out with her. Today I saw her at work and she looked good. I mean, she didnt seem happy to see me, and I was pissed off because of various thing that I will talk about later. I was excited because we get to work together this week. She said yeah, and walked away. I think she was pissed that I didn't call, or she just didn't want to deal with me. I don't know. This journal entry is already too long, and I don't think I got where I wanted to. In the end it seems like she was just mad at the fact I haven't called her, and when I started it seemed like more. Maybe I am looking to deep into this. Man, I don't understand women. Well, I guess I will call her on Monday and see whats up. Because I will be gone this weekend, and I know she will. I let you know what happens. Until next time... eat a waffle.
PS longest entry ever.
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