| Today I have been thinking a lot about those weblogs out there. Some people call them blogs, which confusses me... what does the 'b' stand for? So I just call them online journals or weblogs. Anyway, the more I thought about them, the more I thought, who reads these? Today I read my cousin's weblog for the first time. I didn't even know he had one. As I was reading it, I felt like I got to know him more. I mean, we aren't too close, be we don't hate each other. Its just that we usually don't talk a lot about personal type stuff. People tend to type this kind of stuff into a journal type thing. I guess this way you are talking to people and only the people that care are listening. This way you don't feel too selfish, because they are the ones who came here and started reading them, you never forced them. In regular conversation you usually don't talk about how lonely you are or how much your love life sucks... well, at least I don't. But in a journal, you tend to type to your hearts content. If people care about what you have to say, they read it. If they don't give a shit, they just won't read it. I don't know where I was going with this... I'm bored.
On another note. I have been feeling weird a lot lately. I mean, I have been HAPPY. How fucked up is that? I mean, nothing in my life is really making me this way... which makes it even weirder. I also feel like I have a lot of energy and my mind seems to jump from one thing to another quite fast like. Its like I am doing one thing, end up doing something else and completely forget what I was doing and when I do remember, it feels like it never happened. Its hard to explain, because I was kind of like this before, but now... it seems more intense. I don't know where I am going with this either. In the end I don't know if this is what I want, or if its something I don't want. Either way, I think this is what 'they' want. And by 'they' I mean the scientist type people who make these anti-anxiety and anti-depression pills. I think this is causing this insane craziness, which seems good, or at least it seems more right then being sad and depressed all of the time. The side effects are almost ADD-ish, and that can't be good... could this mean even more drugs? I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I go back to the doctor... fun times. Until next time... Eat a Waffle.
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